I write this post with tears in my eyes.

Finally, tonight, I realize that I am no longer a high-schooler.

Everything I thought I knew is now different.

What with moving to a new state, starting at a new school and leaving all of my best friends behind, I'm not quite sure what to do with myself.

I feel alone.

I know my family is here for me, but I will see very little of them from here on.

I don't want to go away to college if it means that everything is different.

Change is good. I know that.

But trying to find out which way is up when your world has been picked up, shaken and then turned over and over is hard.

I can honestly say that my heart is near breaking.

I can't stand it.

I know I shouldn't feel this way and I am trying to rely on God, but nothing is ever going to be the same.

Nothing.

Labels: angst, growing-up, school, The World Turned Upside Down